I recently made the decision to take some college courses and try to open up more opportunities for my life. I made it through a good bit of my work feeling pretty good about myself and the small accomplishments I had made toward completing my coursework. Suddenly though, I was working on one of my assignments and found myself totally lost. I had no idea why the material had shifted so heavily in another direction. The work I was doing on my computer didn’t seem to match what I had read and taken notes on in the book. In my research to find the problem, I found out that the book I had read for my classwork was the book I will be using in my next term. All of my reading was in vain. I had to start over and begin again.
In a world where every second counts, I felt like I had taken myself far off course. I still am not certain of the ramifications of reading from the wrong book. Will it leave me behind for the entire term or will i catch up and stay on top of each assignment? Perhaps everything will be fine, and I can also look forward to having a jump on my course work in my next term. I am not sure of where this will lead me, but I am sure of one thing. I will get a better understanding from the book I am reading now, than from the one I was studying before.
I think many of us find ourselves “reading from the wrong book.” I’m pretty sure we have all finished chapters upon chapters of different aspects of our lives, only to find that we were reading the pages of something that does not apply to us.
We all want our actions to make sense. All of us have ambitions and hopes for great things in our lives. To apply ourselves and bring ourselves to a point where we feel we can reach these dreams, we have to make sure we are lined up in the area of our learning. We can’t be successful in any test life puts us through if the course we studied was not intended for us. The chapters I had already read were beyond my level. I will reach that level at a later time. Right now I need to focus on where I am at. Similarly, we all are on separate levels in life. I cannot expect the lessons of your life to serve as a guide to my own. I can learn from you, but my course work is much different than yours. If I read the wrong book, I won’t succeed when I am tested.
As you continue through life’s journey, reach for the book that describes your life where it is now. Don’t try to reach above or beneath the level of understanding of your current standing in life. You have the necessary tools to excel. Don’t read the wrong book. Take up every opportunity to create hope for your life and apply it whenever you can. You can pass this test you are going through. You can ace your next quiz. All you have to do is keep on track. Aim for that promising destiny you believe in, but never seem to be able to grasp. First, you need to check out your book. Is it the right one? Are your actions in life based on a clean heart and a pure intension or from something you learned on a television show or a magazine? Study at your level. Pass your test.
It’s funny how much the losers in so many movies remind me of myself. I don’t completely understand why I feel this way, but I always seem to share similar attributes with the characters in the movies who seem to have no luck at all. Is it that I am a loser myself, which makes it easy for me to relate? Maybe it is that I am that guy who can’t seem to get it together no matter how hard he tries. Truth is, I think I am that man. But why are these movies so popular? Are there more people out there, like myself, who fall into this very same category? Maybe we all have these insecurities about ourselves. I think Hollywood is aware of our insecurities. Writers and producers always seem to try to paint the picture of their main characters as the common man. If this is true, I may not be as alone as I think I am in this world. Maybe we all see ourselves in dim light.
I can remember times in my past that I looked at my situation in life and thought to myself, ‘Nobody will ever want to be with someone like you.’ I have thought this about relationships, friendships, jobs, you name it. I have felt failure in ever category imaginable. I find it funny though because I also like myself. I look at myself in the mirror and say, ‘You’re not so bad. In fact you’re kind of cute, and funny, and just an amazing person who anyone should love to be with.’
Our insecurities shape who we become in the public eye. People never want to be around someone who doesn’t like themself. Question is, how can somebody like themself when no one around them treats them respectfully as a person. It’s a double delimna. It’s a scale that is hard to balance. I don’t think as many people view us unfavorably as we might make ourselves believe. We are just as much the perfect person in the movie as we are the loser. This all depends on whose eyes we are looking through. I would like to think that other people see me the way I see myself when I look in the mirror with encouraging thoughts. Maybe we aren’t all that bad. We should find courage in the promise we see in ourselves.
The next time you look in a mirror, don’t see the person that is a failure. You are not a failure. If anyone can look at you and tell you that you aren’t good enough to make the cut, I can say pretty assuredly, the same person who tells you that is struggling to make the cut themself. We all deal with issues of insecurity. It is the people who look in the mirror and believe the positives thoughts, who overcome these insecurities. You are not a loser. You are not a failure. I look at my own life and worry about the areas where I have failed. While sometimes that is a sad story, it still doesn’t make me any better or worse than the next person. We all make good choices, we all make bad choices. No one is immune.